mySCRIBBLINGs-

2009-11-29T17:21:00.002+08:00

why is love so weird?
why is love so retarded?
why is love so torturing inside,
but you just dont know how it happened.

why is love a pain?
why is love a prick?
why is love so hurting inside,
but you just dont know it's coming.

when will love be sweet?
when will love be mesmirising?
when will the fruits of labour be coming back,
and let me taste the sweetness of fonder.

how does love get stronger?
with each passing day.
when the sun shines, and rain pours.
how does love grow taller?

love hurts

big time

2009-11-29T11:58:00.002+08:00

i sort of taken to a liking that my blog is half dead. and not only so, people starts to skip my blog link. going to make it count now, every blog post. even if you dont read, all the better, makes it all better, since i can rant non stop with no people interfering.

i think i must start to control my feelings toward my relationship already. i think it's getting overboard and i think my dar is not going to like it. is it so, that when you love someone, you worry the same amount about them? it's like, he's being such a huge part in my life now, and i really want him to succeed in whatever he does. maybe i'm just thinking too much again, but then again, i cant stop worrying.

if one day, he finds me too naggy, will he want to break with me?

aw shyt, no morbid thoughts now...

2009-10-02T14:59:00.003+08:00

STATUS : SICK

bloody life, now sick, now grounded, no shyt!

f*cked up life. hate these shyt.

i just want to bang my head against the wall and scream out my heart.

this is a very RANT-FUL post.

cos i hate life now.

i hate having a cold.

i hate not seeing him.

random shyt again.

i'm off doing what makes me happy. MAPLE.

love ya all, hate my life~

ta's`

2009-09-25T14:52:00.001+08:00

LONG time ever since i last touched blog. but i really have nothing much to tell you. life has been a bitch and really there is not much description you can give a bitch.

i just feeling like ranting NON STOP.

life is short, just quickly get over it.

2009-07-23T11:17:00.003+08:00

boring, now it seems like a chore to actually update my blog when reports are piling up. sigh.

sunshine is working nowadays, so time is shorter when we are together. i guess i just have to make the time seem "longer" by treasuring every second. sigh. i miss those days when we can actually spend a lot a lot of times together. =\ i want you now!!!

oh wells, enough of rants.

i think i'm getting insomnia. hardly slept these days. maybe i should go get some pills. LAWLs.

i was talking to alison aiai on maple yesterday, made a new friend-deon. LAWLs. another crazy ass-ed guy.
aiai must jiayou for exams ok? sighs, i also must jiayou. i need encouragement, i need a hug!
i want to get emo.

if only everything in the world can stop this instance to let me see a bigger picture at what i'm in, perhaps i can be happier. if there is one place i rather be, it wont be here on this emotion-barren place called earth. if there is one other person who can understand me, it might just be someone from jupiter. but then again, i might not be able to speak its language, thus there's none. if there is someone i would like to rid of this moment to lighten my burden, it would be me. if there is something that can solve my problems, it would be dying. if there is something i want to have is determination. if there is something i want more, it would be courage. if there is one thing i can delete from my mind, it would be negative thoughts. if there is something i can remove from my blood, it would be laziness. if there is something i want to replace, it would be my brain. if there is something i want to selfishly snatch away from people it would be freedom. if there is something i can take over from someone, it would be opportunities. if there is one big thing i can change this world, i would want to make scenes that will result in happy endings coming true.

SIGHs.

2009-07-12T13:31:00.003+08:00

OMG!!!

i'm falling in love with this new instrumental group comprising of violins and cello, all in electric!
they are just the POWER!!!

<3ESCALA!!

go see!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NUxzoWdUGd0

2009-06-13T20:14:00.001+08:00

ABC About You Questions:

A - AVAILABLE : NO.
B - BIRTHDAY : 4th August.
C - CRUSHING ON : No one.
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD : Water.
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO : Everyone is easy.
F - FAVORITE SONG : There are countless.
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS : Bear, whoo! SCARY!
H - HOMECOUNTRY : Singapore
I - IN LOVE WITH : My boyfriend.
J - JUGGLE : CANT.
K - KILLED SOMEONE : No.
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE : 8+ hours?
M - MILKSHAKE FLAVOR : Mocha.
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS : 0.
O - ONE WISH : I wish him to be successful.
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST : My boyfriend.
R - REASON TO SMILE : Him.
S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD : xin tiao by wang li hom
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP : 0700h
U - UNDERWEAR COLOR/PATTERN : PLAIN. (sick shit..)
V - VEGETABLE(s) : YUMMY. I like long beans, cabbage, potato….
W - WORST HABIT : Twitching my nose. Had that corrected, mind you.
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD : 1.
Y – YOYOS ARE : Stupid.
Z - ZODIAC SIGN : Goat

Random Questions About You:

Spell your name without vowels : S H Z H N
What color do you wear most? : Black.
Least favorite color? : Hot pink.
What are you listening to? : The cars on the road.
Are you happy with your life right now? : Ever since the day he stepped in.
What is your favorite class in school? : Product design class.
When do you start back at school? : 1994.
Are you outgoing? : Pretty much.
Favorite pair of shoes? : My brazilliano praia. Those are flops though.
Where do you wish you were right now? : Beside my beloved.

THE CANS:

Can you dance? : A bit.
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth? : No.
Can you whistle? : Yes.
Write with both hands? : If you don’t mind my left-handwriting being ugly, YES.
Walk with your toes curled? : YES.

THE DO'S:

Do you believe there is life on other planets? : Yes.
Do you believe in miracles? : Yes.
Do you believe in magic? : Yes.
Do you believe love at first sight? : YES YES YES.
Do you believe there’s Satan? : Yes.
Do you know how to swim? : Yes.
Do you like roller coasters? : HELL YES!
Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows? : Sure, bring it on.

THE HAVES:

Have you ever been on a plane? : Unfortunately, No.
Have you ever asked someone out? : Yes.
Have you ever been asked out by someone? : Yes.
Have you ever been to the ocean? : No. Been to sea.
Have you ever painted your nails? : Yes.

THE WHATS:

What is the temperature outside? : No clue.
What radio station do you listen to? : GOLD 90.5/ CLASS 95 XD
What was the last restaurant you ate at? : Marche
What was the last thing you bought? : Chalk.
What was the last thing on TV you watched? : The fairy odd parents, it’s a great cartoon.

THE WHOS:

Who was the last person you text? : My beloved.
Who was the last person you took a picture of? : Me.
Who was the last person you said I love you to? : My beloved, duh.

CRYING SECTION:

Ever really cried your heart out? : Yes.
Ever cried yourself to sleep? : Yes. What’s there to be ashamed of?
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder? : No.
Ever cried over the opposite sex? : Yes…
Do you cry when you get an injury? : HELL NO!
Do certain songs make you cry? : Yes. =\

HAPPY SECTION:

Are you a happy person? : Pretty much, YEAH.
What can make you happy? : ANYTHING =)
Do you wish you were happier? : No, I’m satisfied.
Can music make you happy? : YES YES YES!!!!!

LOVE SECTION:

How many times have you had your heart broken? : 3.
Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them? : Yes.
What is your current hair colour? : Black.
Current piercings? : A pair of earholes.
Have any tattoos? : No.
Eye color? : Black.

IN A BOY/GIRL:

Favorite eye color : Chocolate brown.
Short or long hair : Short.
Height : TALL, best in 1.7m onwards
Best clothing : You’ll look good in everything, darling.

HAVE YOU EVER(s):

Been to jail : No.
Mooned someone : HAHAHAHAHAHA. No.
Laughed so hard you cried : YES.
Cried in school : Nursery, because I was afraid of some American teacher. Hmmph.
Thrown up in a store : No.
Done something really stupid that you still laugh at today : No.
Gone skinny dipping : No. Bathtub counts?

THIS OR THAT:

Pepsi or Coke : Pepsi.
McDonald's or Burger King : Mac.
Single or Group Dates : Both works for me.
Chocolate or Vanilla : BOTH?!
Strawberries or Blueberries : Stawberries.
Meat or Veggies : Veg.
TV or Movie : BOTH!
Guitar or Drums? : Guitar.
Adidas or Nike : Nike. Nothing is impossible.
Chinese or Mexican : For what? Food? Or men? (HAHAHAHA!)
Cheerios or Corn Flakes : Corny.
Cake or Pie : Pie.
MTV or VH1 : I love Music.

2009-06-08T10:30:00.002+08:00

lalala~

am now in school blogging.

it's holidays!
started it off staying over at sunshine's and then now in school slacking with him, damian, and yi rong. sunshine's said that later alister they all also coming. WA.
so out sia. i only girl. PUI!
LAWLs!

anyways, blog later. i go fool around. laters!

2009-06-04T15:20:00.002+08:00

i'm currently at singapore science centre, waiting for 4pm to come. sunshine and i are waiting to watch sea monsters at the omni theatre. it's 10 bucks for like 40mins?! OMGAWD! ah wells~

the popcorn here at science centre is ew, so dont try. i much much prefer the ones at GV. there are like more delicious! LOL!

today, i pon-ned school. REALLY NO MOOD AT ALL. holiday is getting to me very very fast! makes me wonder how the interview questions are coming along. will ask peipei later. haha.

1530 now. gotta to go in first. later no space!
cya!

SOME RANDOM PICS UPDATE

2009-06-02T11:52:00.004+08:00

ROSE: my gift to sunshine for i think 4th month or is it 3rd? XD
BEAR: sunshine's gift to me for 4th month

YUNLING'S BDAY

her mango cake-specially for the one and only bday girl

the gobstoppers i bought for her

interestingly, i took out a grape flavoured and to my surprise, it's SIAMESE TWINS!!! omgomgomg!

i know i owe loads of posts but what to do, too much work to heave and pull. MSTs just right after 3-week hols! omg!

sunshine's sick these few days, STOOPID weather! so hot and humid. make my sunshine sick! NUGGET! luckily he's feeling so much better now, though he still often has the urge to shit. LAWLs! i realise i can say all i want here since he doesnt read my blog. BAHAHAHAHA! *EVILs*

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sometimes, i feel lucky to have him around. he's always there for me when i feel like shit, feel depressed, or stressed up. i'm not sure if there are more guys like him out there but i know that this particular species are really really rare. being understanding is hard already, just add on those concern, attention and care. i do admit that i'm like a kid, needing attention and affection here and now. he's like understanding i'm still kid-dish and accept me for who i am. rather than attacking my flaws, thinking of where to improve my weakness, he chose to polish my strengths and make my weakness seem like strengths , if not, make it magically disappear as if it doesnt matter. Thanks! :D

i know if he were to reply, he's going to say, "its ok" or "its my pleasure"

haha

i just love him!

mr happy and little miss sunshine

seems like it's opposite, but never mind, i guess i'm his sunshine toos. XD

2009-05-21T11:10:00.003+08:00

i know i'm promising those pictres but then, TOLD YOU BLUETOOTH IS @#$%^ up, so WHAT TO DO. but i will post up, no frets.

currently, i'm in LP lesson, (NOT lanpa, is loss prevention XD we dont learn how to blowjob in class) so i'm supposed to be looking at the tutorial online, but you know, with peipei's lappie i can do much much more. like blogging, looking up facebook, and watch stoopid videos on youtube-y. so yea. blogging in class is fucking cool!

anyways, i'm going to visit the science centre with sunshine to visit the "DaVinci" exhibition SOON. maybe this week so yea!

by the way, i'm purchasing a new sony vaio as MY lappie soon. not sure when, but SOON. hahaha. okays, that's gay and vague. AND I'M GETTING THE BROWN ONE. BROWN

i remembered promising alison A.K.A. GINU AIAI to help her collate the maple lists of GodHeaven guild. AH WELL. I WANT RARA TO PROMOTE ME TO JR. LIAOs. XD
you know, in Maple Delp server, GH is top guild. YAY! <3 GH

oh wells, suddenly i have no inspiration to blog anymore. sunshine's coming to shool again to accompany me during my ardous 4-hours break later on from 1200 to 1600. haha!

probably having presentation later, wish me luck!

2009-05-17T11:36:00.002+08:00

there's something wrong with my com's bluetooth. i cant seem to connect it to my handphone. pictures next time then, no choice eh? it seems that a lot of things are getting faulty! bluetooth, msn, internet gone bonkers, clock, even my handphone clock got problem!

!@*&^%$##$#%^^!!!!!

LAWLS

i'm going nuts! it's like, suddenly all technology is going against you, and you cant help it!

ARGHH!! sickening!
watched angels and demons on friday, 15thMay, my fifth month with my darling sunshine. :D
I RATE ANGELS AND DEMONS, 3.25/5

too much things CHANGED from the book, not cut, but CHANGED!
ew~
i wonder how they gave 4/5!

read the book and watch the show, and you'll know it! BLAH!

anyways, happy fifth month to me and my sunshine :D
i love you truckloads

2009-05-15T08:10:00.002+08:00

THERE ARE LOTS OF PHOTOS I HAVENT LOAD UP YET!!!

will update soon. XD

today is the fifth month with sunshine.
HAPPY FIFTH MONTH! <3 ^^

love you loads loads

and i realised it's hard to wake up on time on fridays. always overslept.
MUST be the early weekend mood...

2009-05-08T08:29:00.002+08:00

i think it's going to rain. i heard thunder rumbling from a distance. regardless of the rain, sunshine and i are heading to mustafa located in little india down serangoon for a walk. i'm planing to buy him a "nautica voyager" perfume later down at mustafa. that's going to be an early 5th-month present from me. maybe i'll buy when he is unaware or in the toilet. so shush! it's a surprise!

currently, i'm in class writing this post to you guys. finished tutorials last night and WTF, forget to take the file that i always hand-carry out today. yeayea, i rushed out of house like 0725.. FINE. my bad alright! LAWLs! at least i was earlier than the teacher you know!!!

anyways, i am like sleepy~if it's going to rain, all the better the weather to sleep you know! ah wells, this is so *toot*. wanting to sleep in class is a sin! *knocks head* no sleeping!

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i have to say. i think sunshine is great, i dont think he's reading this so yea! it's like, to think back, he now sends me home almost everyday, calls me almost every night. maybe you'd say it's typical, which boyfriend doesnt? ah wells, it just doesnt feel the same! <3 sunshine LAWLs!

i'll update a little at night, when there'll be more stuffs to update.

see ya!

2009-04-30T21:26:00.006+08:00

new blog, new name, new background.

NEW me.

i'm proud to say i'm off for a new start and hopefully, people wont think i'm the old shu anymore. hopefully, people can keep me this way because i just dont want to stray off and do wrong stuffs anymore. MAINTAIN!!!

the NEW shu is here to stay!

and so you see, my address is as above. Natalie is officially my English name, just that it is not in my I.C. . so yea~it's just for your info. but if you are more used to 'shu', then SHU it is!

school reopen a week ago. gotten used to the waking up and workload already. it's 0800 everyday! OMGAWD! but what to do, i chose GEMs on tuesday 8-10. no choice, must tahan!

tomorrow would be labour day, so happy labour day to you guys out there! holidays are hard to come by, needless to say the LONG weekend as a bonus! CHERISH ya? (:
will be staying over at sunshine's place so yea, you guys need me just drop me a message or a ring. if you have my number~

i'm officially banned from telly!
TOO BAD

off to bed now, tired day with 4 hours break during curriculum time.
oh yea, thanks for sunshine, yao and lizhu (if this is misspelt, I'M SORRY!) for dropping by for lunch at SP. GREAT COMPANY, though boring in library. haha, hope you 2 enjoyed the videos. (: remember to return ah!!!!!!

see you guys on saturday,
love you all~

afterTWOdaysawayfromHOME

2009-05-02T16:42:00.003+08:00

i'm back home now~
getting E-MAO a little..

ah well, we spent 2 days at home slacking our asses off. watched a couple of shows, namely "just my luck" and "stomp the yard". great shows~ really love the dance moves in "stomp the yard" absolutely stunning! i want to dance like them!

yesterday for dinner, my sunshine cooked! the soup was the best of all. there was fishballs, meatballs, long, skinny mushrooms, potatoes, and the tomatoes and chicken stock cubes. the fried fishes were done mediocre and the brocolli, let's not mention that. but i had a hearty dinner so yea, thanks sunshine!

so we slept at about 0000h plus and woke up like near 1300h. i'm actually the pig, kept sleeping. he accompany me nia. LAWLs! sweet guy~

ah wells, i'm still TIRED. so i guess i should go sleep now! yeayea, AGAIN.

haha.
see you guys around!